Yesterday, all went good except when school ended. Sort of got a tiff with Aga, well in the end I realised it wasn't his fault, so instead I was pissed at Ervin. He apologised so everything's back to normal now.  I can't believe I actually cried for someone I only knew for almost 7 weeks. Tewwible me. I came home and felt super bored, usually after school I'll be so busy chatting online and doing other stuff, but yesterday was really out of the blue, I was filled with boredom, so I just lied down and watch tv.. In which I realised that if Gerald ain't free for me, I will feel bored. Hahaha.. Must not must not, rely on people (:

On a side note, I've been going online and hopping from blogshops to online stores like Forever21, River Island, etc.. I think I haven't been shopping recently, which make me rather itchy. I was so tempted to buy whatever nice stuff I saw, but I held myself back because I'm heading down to Town to shop with my Sista tmrw! :D

Alrighty, Daddy is coming is pick Jill & I up from school pretty soon. We're going for dinner on sea! Heehee, later~

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I'm finally back home. I hate being sea sick. Nevertheless, everything went good. Buffet and enjoying the sea breeze at the upper deck, naiseeeeeeeeee (: Alrighty, I'm too tired to continue. I feel so busy! So much things to do, grrr.. & I doubt I'm gonna meet Gerald next week, yes yes I know it will result in him not being happy. But oh wells... Hope he understands, if not I don't know what to say. Okay, bye.

It's always a fight for love and glory.

Hello jellos!

Yesterday has been great, supposed to skip school but ended up going through the torture of the monotonous Cognitive lesson. After school, went to meet Gerald over at his place where I  crashed over for the night. His Mom cooked dinner for us & it was good! (: This morning after I bathed, my baby was awake and I was shocked. Whenever I stay over and had to go school the next day, he'll just wake up to send me off in the cab, but today was exceptional, he woke up and yay, we managed to talk and share kisses! Heehee.

Well, school today was really boringxz to the max. I don't know why I was so tired. Rushed home straight after school & to my dismay, it was raining so heavily which resulted to my footwear being drenched in the pool of water. How great.. Thanks to Aga, he just didn't want to cab home with me.

Anyhooo, I think I'm gonna be busy this week and the following weeks. I have to study for my upcoming UT2 and also, plan for my birthday celebrations (although it won't be a grand one), just that I'm gonna spend it with different groups of people. Yay me, I'm finally turning 18, you won't know how it feels being a December baby. Hahaha! I can meet my girls to club officially as an eighteen old year, and the most important thing, my driving licence!! Time really pass by fast, and I mean real fast, before you know it, it'll be year 2010 soon. So amazingly fast, well, I'll enjoy every single bit of my life (:

Okieee, I'm tired. I'm watching Singapore Idol now. I just saw Mai on tveee, she was one of the audience, haha! She's so free to head down there after school manzzzz.. I support Sylvia Ratonel! Hohoho. Alright, gotta wash up now!

I have been lacking of new photos lately reason being I don't use my N82 phone alrdy and my iphone camera sucks, so no mood to snap any pictures! So.. The pictures below are few beautiful "must have(s)" because they are so pretty!

Tell me this Canon Ixus 100IS (Red) is so sexy.

Ooh~ Comfy heart slippers (Forever21)

Crystal earphones (Forever21)

Kate Spade hair bow, at a smashing 45buckaroos! :O

Zips & Studs Panelled Purse (River Island)

Chanel FTW!! <3

I don't want just anyone to hold, I know that you are someone special..

Forgive. Forget. Remember only happy moments. Throw away upsetting emotions.

It has been a year since we've parted and yes, I've long faced reality. I've ditched the thoughts of you being by my side again. It has come to a point where I realised that your existence in fact doesn't matter to me. Should I still be talking abt you then? Well I guess I shall, because no matter what, I'm thankful for those 3 years be it heartbreaks or enjoyment. You were once a part of me but not anymore. Still, thank you for the everything and I do wish you the best and that you make full use of your life. Now you're my past. Over. Gone. Out.

It's indeed true that lovers can never be friends again. It's hard I guess. Nevertheless, I place my solitude in God. He's the one who showers me with unconditional love no matter how tough life is and when people fail me, I know He's always there. Marc Ashley, I know you will see this and well, I would say I don't bear any grudges anymore. All I want to see is you doing well in life. Thanks for the memories, I'll keep them with me (whether it has been forgotten or not). Take care, my friend.

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I used to be the kind that would love unconditionally no matter how a man uses me or betrays me. I've grown up. When I love a man, I'd always love him. But I'm smart too. If he's ever going to betray me, tell me any more lies & stuff like that, I don't think I'd ever want to spend another day with him. It's dumb. Why would I/someone want to love someone with all my heart & give him everything when he's just a damn jerk that doesn't deserve it? This is no small puppy love. This is the harsh truth. A part you realized when you're all grown up, enough to see the world with your eyes wide open. I'm just halfway there. But experience has thought me a lot in life. No matter what, I thank God for where I am today, whether good or bad.

On a side note..

Happy 9th Month Anniversary!

You, Gerald, my present and my future (: There's so much you know I could say to you. So for this month I shall not type it all out there, cos I'm very sure you clearly know my true feelings. You've always been my encouragement when life seemed tough. Whenever I'm down & worn out, you're there. & that's all I need to help me survive through anything. I am just glad I do have you. Your smile, just makes everything all right.

Please forgive me for times when I tend to get grumpy and work up over some little things, because I guess we humans are sensitive by nature. Reasons why I'm like that also boils down to me loving you. I'm too tired to continue! Till then..

I love you, & I will tell you the same thing everynight. I do.

Whether new or old, pictures still say a thousand words. I love you.

I may not be the hottest or prettiest, but I will love you like no other.

I would say that my weekend was fruitful. Spent time with Gerald as he stayed over my place. I felt really bad somehow too cos I had to study while he just sat beside me doing his own stuff, more like playing his FM game. But he was patient, love you baby! We ordered Macs and I felt like a pig, hahaha! I always am, as long as I'm beside him :p

Before he left, we laid in bed. I gazed into his eyes, I was memorized. No words could ever described how I felt. Your touch, your kisses, your hugs, so electrifying. It has been almost 9 months, it has been wonderful. I held you, I didn't want to let go, I wanted to let you know how special you are to me.. I want you, I need you.

It's 10pm right now. My eyes are closing. I'm so tired..

Mass this morning, followed by lunch at Sakae Sushi. Bought my new iphone cover, very impromptu cos I needed one badly, but it was cheap [: Headed down to school to study with my friends. I'm glad it was productive, but I'm still lost at some parts. I'm too tired to continue anymore revision. Time to wash up & sleeeeeepppp zzZzzzz.. Goodnight world!

Favorite potato salad from Isetan.

Jilly & I when we were young, back then at our old hse.

Daddy!

Daddy when he was a baby with Grandpa & Grandma.

This is my Grandfather, somehow I wish I could see him.
When I saw this photo, I told Daddy he was handsome [:

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you.

Okay, for the past 2 days haven't been that well for me. Reason being...

• Ended up not meeting Gerald on Wednesday
• Caught a flu (& am still feeling discomfort)

However, it was great staying over at Grammy's place as Daddy & Paulzy came over. I had the chance to spend time with Jilly too! (: Yesterday, in class was the worse, I felt so terrible, I was blowing my nose the entire day,, I was so tired and my nose was so pain after that. Imagine I have to juggle my revision and the damn flu, gaahh.. Not that easy after all. Daddy came to pick me up & we had dinner. Daddy & I were also talking about his past, as he goes on about his lifestory, I see water forming in his eyes. The pain I feel for him, only that Daddy feels it more than I do. I admire his strength to carry on under any circumstances & I'm glad he trust in God, because when you do, everything will just fit nicely into place. In life we make choices, & sometimes without thinking, the choice you make doesn't affect you, but the ones around you. We all have to learnt to be appreciative, because not cherishing what you've got, will make you at the losing end, somehow.

Well, Aunt Eve's domestic worker had left for her hometown just 2 days back. Joseph misses & needs her. Well I guess as I've said earlier on, we have to appreciate what we always have on hand rather than feeling upset once it's gone because people come into our lives and they can decide to pack up and leave anytime. Leaving you just footprints and memories...

Moving on.. It's Friday the 13th! But anyhoo, TGIF! I'm done with all my papers, except Accounting. Boohoo.. Okay, it's 7pm right now. Time to shower, followed by tveee & revision. Seeing Gerald in an hour's time! Toodles.

My oh-so-adorable Sasha! (:

When I'm at the crossroads, who will take me to the right path?

Finally it's Wednesday & class is over! The past few days have been tiring basically because lessons were draining & with the upcoming UTs, gosh.. I really need a break. Classmates have been pretty awesome, talking till my throats hurts and hanging out with them which drained my energy is still not that bad after all. Hahaha. Yesterday, I finally got the chance to meet Danial. I didn't choose go along to Starbucks with my other friends, instead I stayed in school with Danial to revise. When I reached home, it was quite late & I had the worst bus journey after a long time, reason being, the bus stink of this bad odour & there were too many people. Oh wells..

On a side note, I'm going to meet my baby later on! Happy happy much :D I feel so tired right now. Class is freezing cold & I miss my boyfi. The internet connection is going be cut off in a few mins, which sucks, because I can't go online or anything. Pfft. Okiedoks, I'm off to do work now (boringxzx).

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"Once you love someone, you will never forget them. Even if it's been months, years, decades.. You might forget the things that they said, but you'll never forget how the things they said made you feel. You may even forget the way they look. But you'll never forget their laughter, their smiles, their tears & all the things that made them who they really are.

Once you love someone, you can never go back to just being normal friends. You'll definitely miss them, even if they've let you down before, even if you tell yourself not to. Because love, like a form of energy, it never disappears or goes away. It is simply transferred on to someone or something else, or sometimes, just kept away.

Once you give your heart to someone, you can never take it back. Because even if you break up & move on, he'll still have a piece of you forever, that you gave him to keep.

Once you say goodbye to someone you love, your life will never be the same again. Because at the very end, you always think of the beginning."

Love so sweet, so beautiful.

I wanna stand with you on the mountains, I wanna bathe with you in the sea.