Have always been loving this space, but as of now, I kinda lost it.

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Love, me.

Yet another week is gone. Hello November~

Well, school has been so draining. Sometimes I wish I didn't take this course because we have school every single day. & going to school is a 1hr 15mins+ journey, horrid. I'm just gonna survive for 4 more months and it's over! However, more studying still, so need my degree! :> Bumped into Danial when I was having dinner at Purvis Street and it made me miss working at Ritz Carlton. Talking about working in a hotel line, I don't know if that's something I want to do. I haven't thought about my future plans, maybe I shld do so very soon.

Mehhh~ Upcoming UTs in the following weeks, such a bummer. Anyway, I'll prolly ditch this place soon enough, my heart's dead for an empty space for my thoughts.

If you can't master your thoughts, you're in trouble forever.

"Suffering is a great favor. Remember that everything soon comes to an end... and take courage. Think of how our gain is eternal."

- Saint Teresa of Avila

Happy All Saints Day anyway, which falls tmrw (:

Tuesday night, partied at Powerhouse. The place where always never fail to remind me of my younger days, hahaha. The place never did change, the music, etc... This week has been short. I am feeling so blahhh now~ So I'm gonna fuck off. Goodbye

I don't hate you. My heart's just broken.

I've been leaving out this space for a very very longgg time. I'm lacking of photos maybe that's the reason! & nothing is that interesting to even pen it down here I guess :\ Saturday, headed out with the peeps to celebrate Denise's birthday! Dinner at Roadhouse where Gabriel and Quinn did the terminator challenge! Late at night, hang out with them playing pool and drinking Baileys. Lovely time with them <3

Anyway yesterday, had a site outing at Clarke Quay. Dinner was at Timbre with the peeps. I finally tried the duck pizza at Timbre! It's so yummy, I'm craving for it ever since (: I loveee good food v much. I can eat, so you can bring me for buffets, I'm on, haha! ^^ OKAYZ, I MUST LOSE WEIGHT TOO. Looking down at my tummy is so discouraging.......

The only way I can recover is when I'm infatuated with someone else.

School's draining me every single day. It's so boring to just sit in class and listen to the facis yak away..... I'm counting down. Every day when I reached home, I'm just so tired to do anything. My life seemed so rountined now. I'm putting on weight & my face is rounder, yet I have no motivation to exercise at all. I wish we all have more than 24hours in a day!

Friday night, I went to party again! ^^ Met Marvin, and we were supposed to dine at Timbre but it was way too packed, we gave up while queuing half way. So we decided to go up to One Altitude for some drinks. Omgosh, I swear the place is so awesome, the view from right up there is so so freaking amazing! Matthew came, and headed down to Butterfact. Had dosage of vodka, tequilla, beer and white wine. Puurrfecttt. Hehehe.

On a side note, it's my 2 years 8 months anniversary with Gerald today <3 Needless to say, he knows my every needs. Hopefully we'll fall more in love than anyone in the whole wide world. His love overpowers anything, and I know I'm safe whereever I'm with him. I love you bb.

I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door. If I'm aching at the thought of you, what for? That's not me anymore.

Yesterday, clubbing at Zouk with sis and her friends + Marvin & his friends. Great night! :>

Goodbye. Should be saying that to you now, shouldn't I?

First day of school, it was horrible. Firstly, travelling to school never felt the same anymore. Secondly, going to school takes forever, blame it on staying in the East! This place is so inaccessible, but I'm bearing with it ): Thirdly, the class, I mean, people. Ahhhhh~ I just wish to do well and hurry get out of school, to graduate, that's what's on my mind right now. That's it.

I've been feeling exceptionally lonely these few days, it's driving me crazy. Yes, I do have friends. The boys too never seem to stop coming, but they're not who I really want to spend my time with so badly, sigh. I miss you so so so much boyfriend. Shall catch another episode of TVD and rest, xoxo.

There's a point in time to love, to be hurt, to move on & finally let go......

Yesterday, went shopping with Momsy at parkway. At night, headed down to Titanium to chill, ended up drinking with Glenys, Geoshua, Simon and 2 other pple.

On a side note, I've been super addicted to The Vampire Diaries, hehehe. :> OKAYZ, I'm unwell, sneezing like crazy, so toodles~

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Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.

Friday, ended up not going to Helipad with Gerald. Met my girlfriends & Marvin to party at Soul for some event that Chandni was doing. Drink drank drunk, lol. Thanks Marvin for taking care of me, and Gerald for picking me up, hehehe.

Saturday, we came down to Gran's place to celebrate Joshua's birthday. As we all grow older, there are lesser cousins in the photos taken because some are overseas studying, if not they have other commitments, ah well.....

Yesterday, we went to Chang Korean BBQ @ Dempsey for lunch, one of our favorite dining place, fooooood was sooooo gooood :> After which, in the evening, we parted, I had to settle some stuff and he had to book in. Mehh~ At night, I decided to be a good girl, accompanied mom for a car ride while she met her clients.

I didn't really have a good sleep last night, even though my phone was on silent, I don't know why. Sigh. I think I'm falling sick again. & worse still, school starts in 2 days time, how sucky can it get! I'm just gonna perservere through it. I know I can do it (:

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Remembering those times you were into me but now you turn around and watch me go.

I've been a good girl staying home on Monday & Tuesday (: Canceled dates even, Mom was so proud of me (:

However, yesterday, I met Stanley to catch up. Finally was able to meet him! He brought me to try out this Turkish restaurant, yum yum. After which, we headed down for drinks at Gravity Bar, Carlton, while waiting for Glenys & Kaixin to join us which was so last minute! Went to Soul to check it out, well it lives up to it's name man! But heard it's only crowded on weekends, so oh well couldn't take it, cabbed down to PH to meet Angela & the boys. Crazy timeeeeee~ Not gonna elaborate on that, lol.

I'm so tired right now, I need my rest, because tmrw's Friday and my babyboy is booking out! Gonna head to Helipad at night too.... Hopefully to catch an early rest tonight! :> On a side note, I think I've not mentioned in a long while that.................. Life's awesome right now! Hehehe. Relationship with boyfriend is stronger than ever, so is my friendship with my friends, I also had the chance to meet and know more pple. Ahhh~ & just a few more days, I'll be back in school, really need to buck up on my grades, having a gpa of 3.58 currently cannot land me anywhere good. I just need to know my priorities, and not let anyone whom once ruined me, ruin me ever again. I've learnt and grew out of it, I'm stronger. Being too nice might be my weak point too, so if any of you dare take advantage of me, 2 words to you. Nevertheless, this has gotta be the good life~

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It started off with a kiss and now we ended up like this.

Friday night, headed down to meet Zheqiang. Got stamped at Zouk then went to drink at Riverside, finally my Jack Daniels babyyyy... Geoshua & Aaron came, followed by Cress and her friends, along with Marvin. Lovely meet up with the boys though. But I admit I wasn't in the right state of mind to even catch up that night, hehehe. Partied my night away. Good and bad night I would say (;

Saturday, spent my time with Gerald, it was so good. Had dinner at Sushi Tei, Japanese craving finally satisfied then off to meet Stefen at Holland V. We chilled and played Monopoly Deal at Starbucks ^^ Bumped into Ben as he was working there! Came back to Gerald's crib to watch the Man U's match along with 20pcs nuggets, yum yum.

Yesterday, home the whole day just spending time with my boyfriend before he books in again in the evening. I'm so tired, just came home not long ago from supper. I AM SO BLOODY BORED RIGHT NOW......... Shall head to bed, goodnight.

Photos from the weekends!

I can't live without you boy. Without you I'll be miserable at best.

Wednesday evening, headed out for dinner to meet G at Iluma, said hi when Cress was working too :D Hehehe. Awesome time, after which I headed down to CQ alone, wanting to sip on margaritas & build sandcastles in the air. However, found out that Vic and the other girls were heading to Zirca, therefore...... Yup, I went to join them! Booze + dance + girls + podium + music was whoooppiiee~ My sweetest girlfriend, Glenys, came down with Leonel & Sj to check on me, really sweet of them. Heh!

Yesterday evening, drove down to Bedok85 for dinner with Glenys. Then, we got lost while trying to find Max and the others at Bedok point -.- Chilled there and later in the night, we decided to check out V4! I swear the place is unbearable, Titanium is wayyyy better, V4 is way too horrid. Left after being there for less than a hour, the rest went home, so supper with Cress & Geoshua in the end at Macpherson! Sent them both home & home sweet home~

I had a good sleep. I have nothing to do now. I need a new manicure. Today's Friday, which means...................................... "We like to sleep all day and party all night. This is how we like to live our life!" Tehehehe ^^v

Last Thursday's photos at MBS (crazy drinking night)

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I didn't want to lose you or leave you with a broken heart. But wherever we are, we're miles apart.

Yesterday evening, met up with Geoshua! Caught Johnny English Reborn after receiving so many good comments about it, indeed was hilarious! :> At night, I headed down to Titanium. Crazy night. 4 guys, 2 girls, 3 bottles. Okayz, you can start to imagine..........

I'm so freaking bored at home right now. Had plans but canceled them :\ Gaaaah.... I have lazy bones.

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I know somebody out there will love you. They'll be the forever we never were. Cause' we were everything that's right at the wrong time...

Yesterday, in the late afternoon, headed down to Happy Daze at Serangoon Gardens to watch Rugby with Gerald & Russell, played monopoly deal too, hehe. At night, met Gerald's friends for drinks at Red Dot Brewhouse. His friends are all so smart, I wish I was one too. One is going overseas to pursue law, the other is studying law in NUS. Gosh, I really need to plan my life asap, gaahhh...

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Amazing how life turns out the way that it does. We end up hurting the ones, the only ones we really love.

Thursday, out wih Cheryl, Nelson & Quinn for some shopping plus just hanging out. We spent the whole day at Town and I finally got to try the Cold Stone Creamery! I didn't really fancy it much and got sick of it, I didn't even finish. At night we headed down to Cress' party at MBS. Crazy drinking games and more drinking and talking rubbish. WHAT A NIGHT. Fell asleep there and woke up when Cress threw the sausage mcmuffin to my face. Reached home only at 6am+!

Yesterday, came to Gerald's place for my weekends as usual :> Oh yes, it was our 2years 7months anniversary! I love that boy. Did I mention he wrote me love letters this week wehen he was in camp, before I could even read it, I broke down in tears (': Hehe, I love him.

Okayz, got out pretty early this morning to go down to Gleneagles, followed by lunch at Nexx and now back at his crib. He's gonna drag me out to hang out with his friends later, hohohohoho. Time to rest!

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Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak. Sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go.

Yesterday, headed out for supper with friends whom I know will never ever leave my side. Awesome~ First stop was Bedok 85, then off to have Rocher beancurd.

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The voices in my head telling me the world's a bad place. Trust no one.

Yesterday evening, headed down to Orchard Central with Gerald & his parents for dinner at Nolboo Korean Restaurant, still couldn't beat the one at Dempsey but had a super good and fulling meal as usual. Rawr. After that, had drinks at 10 | Scotts, Hyatt. Dum dee dum~ I had such an awesome day, yet tiring, and when I got back to Gerald's place, I totally ran out of energy. Meh~

Anyway, today nothing much happened. Just Gerald emoing every Sunday bcos he has to book in, heh. But I swear he's a damn lucky & pampered child :> and being his girlfriend, I feel the loveeeee too, hehe. Alright, guess I aint driving out to meet Glenys for supper tonight, even though I'm a tad bit hungry. Goodnight world.

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Forgive, sounds good. Forget, I'm not sure if I could. They say tell heals everything. I'm still waiting.

Yesterday, met Nelson to catch Final Destination 5 at Town, apparently he was late! If he was on a date, he's gonna be so screwed, lol. Not only was he late, when we entered the cinema, he toppled the whole box of popcorn so probably was left with only less 1/8 of it!! That sotong... Anyway, horrible show, stupid stupid stupid show! Gaaah :\

At night, called pple down to head to Titanium. I don't know what's with me going there so much more often than clubs now, heh. Well, opened bottle and now I'm so damn broke. Need a change in my lifestyle, pronto. Sighpie.. That night was horrible, the insane drinking + crying + emoing + losing of jewellery. Urgh, so damn pissing to think of it right now. But everything was better after a damn good koka noodles at Bukit Panjang. Big thanks to my friends who took care of me, and getting angry at me for me to realised certain rights and wrongs. There will be no more repeat okay? Hehehe.

I'm awake, and can't go back to sleep. Hangover, not good. Guess will not be heading down to the pool today, boooo.

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Look, here we are, all chasing after something that makes us miserable in the end.....

Yesterday, got up early to get ready to meet my twin at Vivo. I was really sleepy bcos couldn't sleep well the entire night before and I caught a flu. Mehhh~ But pretty much had a good time at Sentosa! Sun bathing on the soft beaches with goodies by the side, the clear waters which we soaked ourselves in, music which was played on the go, except teenagers who acted like idiots who whistle & shout non stop (annoying pricks). Every moment was captured through the camera and polariod. I swear at that point I was there, it was the life for me. Perfect. Simply perfect.... ^^

"When you find your one soulmate, you don't just give up. I found mine when I was 15." - Crazy Stupid Love

Didn't stay for long (therefore I don't have a tan -.-), then headed down for my favorite chicken caesar salad at Coffee Bean, followed by shopping & catching Crazy Stupid Love with Jillypieee (: So happy to spend time with her. After movie, went back home straight & felt really sleepy that I skipped dinner. However, I couldn't stay home for long, I was unwell yet I know I needed to leave the hse. Thus, ended up driving down town to pick Cress & meet Glenys and Vic. I swear tailing Glenys' car is the hardest thing! First stop was Scissors cut curry rice and Beach Road. Next stop was Sweechoon, where I bumped into Leonel, Sj, Ben & Damian. Was supposed to meet them that night instead, but ended up meeting my girls, I got caught, hahahaha. But well, at least everyone's tgther! [: All of us was too full for the next stop which supposedly was going to be beancurd! :\ Therefore, home sweet home. Leonel drove off to pick his girlfriend up at Zouk (F-ing sweet), then Sj was supposed to drive to lead me halfway home & Glenys too. Ended up Glenys got lost in CQ (hahah), & I managed to reach home safely. What can I say? I have such awesome friends <3 <3 <3 I think next time, shld have one car instead of 4, lol.

Anyhooo, it's raining now. I'm home, staying home for good the entire day (hopefully). Nose is still being a bitch. Canceled my appointment today bcos I was plain lazy, and I'm supposed to go make another appointment for my Tonsils op, which Mom keeps nagging, but I'm so scared, rawrr...

On a side note, I'm happy with my life now and there's nothing I want to change, can't wait to party tmrw and for Gerald to get out of army so I can meet him and suntan + relaxation by his pool on Saturday. Yay! :> Have a fabulous day everyone, xx.

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Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart.

My recent activities so far have been whooooo~~ yet exhausting..... Let me jot them down.

Sunday night: Drinking with Hykel & the gang @ Aranda Country Club.

Yesterday night: Emotional break down in front of my mommy. Drove out for supper @ Two Fat Men with her to clear my mind.

Tuesday: Town with Glenys & Vic. Dyed my hair + manicure + shopping at H&M + late dinner at TCC along with Jiayi.

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Are you lonesome tonight? Do you miss me tonight? Are you sorry we drifted apart?

Yesterday, I had the loveliest lunch I ever had in the longest time with my family at The Rice Table, International building <3 After which, met Gerald. I guess this is how it's gonna be. Weekends will be for him! Sigh. Army kinda kills him, and I on the other hand, have to keep hearing stories about his army life every day. LOL. Caught The Smurfs with him again, at least it's worth watching twice.

Slept pretty late last night and woke up early today to have lunch at Tanglin Mall and we just came back from the Asian Civilisation Museum after seeing the Terracotta Warriors! Can't wait to catch the upcoming exhibitions~ Love love love going to the museums always! (:

"Feeling numbed to life is dangerous and can be distractive."

Well...... Guess what? I have absolutely no plans this upcoming week. I really don't know what to do, just been seeing my money in my bank depleting. It's not easy growing up, really. I have to think about my future, my career, my savings, everything that is going to be involved. Sigh. Anyway, I don't know what to do, shld I work? Or take up some courses, like learning a new language or something? Hmmm... Going out can be so tiring, sometimes I just wanna stay indoors, away from the world.

I might be happy on the outside, but sometimes I do get tired of life; pleasing people or even being there for your friends. I'm not complaining, just exhausting. Emotionality has struck me once again. I definitely do not like this feeling at all. I need to do something before I'm dragged down into the rabbit hole. #storyofmylife

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I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.

Yesterday, watch The Smurfs, freaking ass adorable, but according to my girlfriend, she said it looks like bluetack, hahaha! After the movie, met my other friends where we headed down to Titanium to party the night away. It's was Nelson's birthday, guessed he pretty much had fun, though he got drunk, and went home early. Really love the VIP area though :>

Anyhoo, just got back from 126 dimsum at Geylang, hahahahahehehehohohoho~

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I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder than you know. Cos boy you're driving me so crazy.

Monday, headed down to Grand Corpthorne for Gerald's friend party. After which, I left to meet Glenys & Vic at Titanium. I can't believe I stayed in there for hours. Hennessy kinda sucked, lol.

Yesterday, met Gerald. We were supposed to check out the Terracotta warriors at Asian Civillisation Museum but the queue was insane. Ended up heading to Tcc, Ion, for dinner. I'm so in love with TCC food! :> Yum. Anyway, Opera Gallery at Ion was amazing too, so in love with the art there, rawr. Makes me wish I have some sort of talent, hahaha.

Last night I had a good 12 hours of sleep, but am feeling really sleepy now.... Sigh. I'm such a bummer during the holidays. No work, just going out having fun every day. Body's bound to break down another time, GG.

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Sometimes in life we gotta be strong bcos pain is temporary.